Internal War

I'm having a war, a full-fledged battle inside my mind at the current moment. Why? I'll tell you. Because I can't decide whether I want this blog to only be for writing. . . or if I should share all on the wonderment (ha ha) that is bubbling in my brain. I already have three blogs. Should I create another. . . or combine them. . any suggestions?!
-JR

unmeasured tune

the tune makes its’ mark

in the air, making itself felt

in an unfeeling world. now, then,

earsplitting silence

knowing i cannot remember

the rhythm and beat

of futures never told,

holding alone, unanswered questions,

except for the young at heart

a door to a tomb of       timeless           existence

soon becoming the untranslatable tune

reaching ahead for the abyss.

Temperature On My Tongue

Wow. I am stuck in this cave, this box. I think I'm claustrophobic. No. ADD. ADHD? Energy? Snuffed out. Like that spiced cider candle I blew out last night. The walls, I think they are trying to tell me something. They are laughing at me. Torturing me because I am their prisoner. My brain: exhausted. Can't concentrate. The little box of motion pictures is making me drool, the chefs artistically and flawlessly handle exotic foods. Or maybe they only seem exotic because I am so far away from that perfectly decorated, white plate, laying before the judges. Who are they to judge. Not everyone has the same taste buds. Why are they called taste buds anyway? They are not my buds. I don't even know who they are or what they do. Do, do, do, do, do. Why is it always what you do? It's not what you do though. How you do it is what matters. Dyslexic. Seriously, it's entertaining at times. Crunch. Crack. Crunch. Cinnamon. Temperature crescendoing against my tongue. A piece slices into my tongue. Unexpected. Ouch. Zapping me back to the real world. Thanks a lot stupid mint.

Engaged

Have you ever seen nineteen tons of glitter tossed onto an awaiting black canvas? Friday night, that was the sky. Have you ever seen nineteen tons of of glitter stuck into a ring? Okay, so maybe that isn't physically possible, unless it is a really, really giant ring. But in any case, use your imagination, and that is what got placed on my left hand last Friday night. The snow that we hiked on for ten minutes to our spot in the mountains was also glittering under the stars and the headlight. And if you really want me to be cliche, our eyes might have glittered and had permanent smile wrinkles around them the whole night. This is more of a personal story, but give me a break, I had to say something. I love you B. 

Silent Mouths

Ever have trouble merging into traffic? Finally, someone nice will let you in. What do you do? Smile, wave, and mouth the words "thank you" to them. Why in the world do we mouth the words? They are not going to hear us say the word. You might as well say them, shout them, sing them. Some people cannot even mouth words correctly, hence, troubling the nice person who decided to let you in. Random thought of the day.

103 ADVENTURES

A month or so ago, I was sitting at work, with my mind going at one-hundred miles an hour. What was I thinking about? Life. Everything. That is when I decided I was not very happy with the way I had been living. Yes, there have undoubtedly been beyond incredible experiences. However, when reflecting back on the whole picture my life had painted so far, it was nothing but a blur of dull colors, with highlighted spots here and there. I want my life picture to be elaborate and full of creativity, adventure, and euphoria. This is where the 103 Adventures to Live comes into play. I decided to make a list of 103 things I absolutely have to do before I die, preferably sooner than later. Over the past month I finalized my list, and now I can start living it. I will not be planning these events out, except for the ones that require it such as traveling over seas. Hopefully I will be able to record pictures or video from each, to make it even more real for those who may read this and think it is impossible. Life is short, go live it. Keep in mind, these are in no order or importance, just what came to my mind.

103 Adventures to Live:

1. Learn a language

2. Do a 540 off a cliff (skiing)

3. Do a dub 9 into a foam pit

4. Get certified in cpr (again)

5. Hang out with Sammy Carlson

6. Write for a ski magazine

7. Sleep at a golf course

8. Live on the streets for at least 1 day/1 night

9. Compete in big mountain comp (skiing)

10. Compete in rail jam (skiing)

11. Feed the homeless

12. Blow bubbles on a populated street

13. Save a life

14. Be funny

15. Start a successful clothing line

16. Tag a train

17. Write a song

18. Write a book

19. Graduate college

20. Backpack europe

21. Become ambidextrous

22. Borrow a street sign to decorate my room

23. Go jogging in swimsuits

24. Do a back tuck successfully

25. Donate blood

26. Help someone spiritually

27. Have a massive food fight

28. Change a life

29. Inspire someone

30. Learn to breakdance

31. Take an art class

32. Heli-ski

33. Ski all continents

34. Go to yankees game

35. Make a ski edit

36. Attend summer ski camp

37. Paint something meaningful

38. Have a fight night (fight club style)

39. Ski Mt. Hood

40. Invent something

41. Teach

42. Take a gymnastics class

43. Get a tattoo (permanent or temp.)

44. Start a dance in public place

45. Bull ride

46. Destroy a TV

47. Help build a house

48. Approach a stranger and kiss him

49. Road trip the USA

50. Give a stranger a $100 bill

51. Scream at the top of my lungs

52. Send a message in a bottle

53. Get a chairlift named after me

54. Pay for someone’s groceries

55. Sleep in haunted house

56. Take a stranger to dinner

57. Spend a day in silence

58. Throw a surprise party

59. Make music video

60. Go dog sledding

61. Have a sacrificial bonfire to the snow lords (burn skis/snowboards)

62. Fall in love

63. Win an award at a ski comp

64. Street preform and make $100

65. Compete in Triathlon

66. Experience zero gravity

67. Go on a dirt biking trip

68. Party with a rockstar

69. Ski all resorts in UT

70. Learn to weld

71. Design ski’s for a ski company

72. Take cooking class

73. Make a marble booby trap

74. Live in an ice cave for a week

75. Prove doubters wrong

76. Road trip the Pacific Coast Highway

77. Ride an elephant

78. Do a Grand Canyon river run trip

79. Learn to skate (skateboard)

80. Learn to BMX

81. Take a trip to Bend, OR

82. Hike Timpanogous Mtn, UT

83. Land a backflip wakeboarding

84. Go to a haunted castle in Europe

85. Walk the Great Wall of China

86. Paraglide/skydive

87. Go paintballing

88. Do a glow in the dark mission

89. Swim to get golf balls at a course

90. Build a quarter pipe (skateboard)

91. Race through Sand dunes on dune buggy

92. Take guitar lessons

93. Build a fort and play video games all day

94. Play miniature golf in public (set up own course)

95. Sew a hoodie

96. Make someone happy

97. Kayak

98. Rockclimb

99. Scubadive

100. Go to a Chicago Blackhawks playoff game (NHL)

101. Do the PC Water Ramps (park city, ut)

102. Ride a bullet bike

103. Do parkour (well)

There is the list. Look for future posts of my 103 Adventures to Live to see how this changes my life, as I know it will.

Cheers.